It is a shame the only time that I seem to write here is when I am feeling truly blue.  My mother lost her battle with lung cancer this summer and it has taken most of the wind out of my sails.  I did have a beautiful granddaughter born the end of July.  She truly is a blessing and I just wish my mother could have seen her.  She is the daughter of my firstborn and my mothers first grandchild.  Maybe a person shouldn't spend time thinking too much.  When I start looking at how fast the time has passed and that life just keeps plugging on without her hear, it really hurts.  I guess, we all feel that the world should stop spinning when someone important to us passes.  The little things in life that used to irrate me, just don't seem to matter much anymore.  I am truly trying to only find the joy in life.  It is so easy to find the sorrow and anger, but takes a bit of work to stay happy.  I wish everyone happiness and health.